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Fuck my life . Isn't going good at all .. I guess my path will end up like my brother's ..

M.I.A

Who there's ? No one ..
Back soon :(

I feel kinda heartrending this march holidays .. Or should i say everyday ? Everything seems fatuous but why has got to do with me ? I ain't a toyfriend for people to mess with . I'm a human being , born with feelings . Can't you spare a thought for me ? It's hard to be a middleman . Must i always the one giving in ? The one who starts everything again ? Am i invisible ? Hope not . When your are troubled , who's the first to ask what happen ? Ulteriorly , It's hard to prolong this grieving in me . I'm just a troublemaker to those people in my life . i don't get laudation from anyone , i'm just like an rotten apple in your eyes . I'm gonna hold my tears and build my courage in becoming a stronger person . But the euphoria in me is not coming back anymore ): The loquacious cheerily girl , will she come back ?

For the time being, i would remain quiescent . But just hope my smile is fake real :) .
I flunked my tests for TermOne , i did so-so badly till i only manage to pass English . How's life going to be for me in the next few months with this kind of shit results ? Darn it . Might as well ... quit .

March Holiday is so mundane :( No special outings or whatsoever .
Currently out of cash . Only have $20+ with me . How to survive w/o $$$$$$$$ ? Stress .
I feel so helpless now ! Ugh . Anyway i'm saving up my money . I swear i can do it !
I shouldn't be spending money instead earning $$ ! Double the price (x
My task for now is to earn my parent's trust so that i could start work and depend on myself .
Alright , post getting longer , shall stop now :)

Love ♥

Hi everyone . I'll do a proper post either tomorrow or thursday ok .
Perhaps some rantings in here too becuz i can't keep alot of things to myself ,
And i've no one to go to & willing to hear my silly stories . I could only pour everything inside here :)
So wellz , stay tune alrights .
Loveya people <3

Rainy day ..
School today = Sleep ! Sprinkles of rain so cooling ~
After school , went 110 then 503 . Alot people there .
Sarah & Ahbear & Szeyuen send me homeee <3
Before ending this post , it's 11.51pm ! Have to chiong already .

Happy 16th Birthday !♥
Thank you for being there for me when i'm at my worst .
But i'm still as stubborn yknw ! Hehe . But i'll always remember you :)
Stay happpppppy kiddooooooo .
Goodbye Readers !

I rate this an "F" :P

School's boring ! SLEEEEEEEP :@
I'm confident that i will pass maths test ^^ Wish me luck kay !
Did YOG assignment after school for ICT . Quite good at it :) Twit & Fb ~
Stayed awhile at CompLab, talked with ICT teacher & students .
Headed 110 , slack then 109 , bus home aftermath :)
The moment i came home, still perspering, Dad called & said that my phone is ready for collection !
Immediately change & Mrt down to simei . W595 has come back to live :)
Got nothing much to post already . Stay tune okayz .
Sayanora <3

Big difference ? Yes & i suck with short hair .

My face smells like lemon now ^^ Just had homefacial & it feels incrediblely great !
Oh no, school's tomorrow ! I have to be punctual & not late for school .
Have to be a goodgirl next week so March hols i can get what i've yearning for .
March 6 , Saturday
Went to OG , Bugis & City plaza with Jiayi :) Dad gave me $30 free voucher for OG .
Bought clothes & I'm satisfied with it ! Thanks to Jiayi wonderful sense of fashion .
Home around 8.30pm . Do Maths & eat Jiayi's cooked maggie mee .
Send Jiayi to her house @ 11.15pm . Buy food from 7-11 . Hsh .

Alright , i can't wait for March Holiday . I can't wait to do DIY rebonding & hair dyeing !
Though it's only 1 week . But i bet it will be awesome fun . Hope so .......
I'ma go watch 'Rush Hour' naozxc .
Bye readers ✿

It had been past 3 consecutive days that i walk home after school with Jane !
Seems like a exercising journey for me . Hah .
Life's is always same for me . Just so tired & sick of everything .
I'ma mug hard on my studies now . Gonna be a goodgirl alright . Gambateh!
But still , no one's stopping me from what i want to do :)
Might blog w/o photos in my next posts as i don't often camwhore much now :/
Perhaps it's coz of my new haircut that totally make me no mood !
Okay , i'm going to do my homework now ^^
Bye suckers ~ Await for next post (:

Please la , i'm really trying to alterate myself this year already . Why can't you guys just recede from me awhile & let me have the time to think . Now you make me think that you're a merciless person . Your actions & words proves it . Seriously , i had enough of your nonsense already . Don't make me to a point that some day i will just shout everything back to you . I mean what i said now . I'm not gonna care if you are my father or what coz you don't fit to be . May god bless me that i will not cry again . I'm gonna hold my tears . Everything's going haywire ..No one understands .

Bus 28 to Toapayoh meet YongYong (: Bought presents there . Walk around & etc .
Was planning to watch movie but no one available >:
Guess i should follow my dad & buy illegal DVD's . Hehehe . Who wants to buy from me ? ^^ Lol .
March Holiday is coming ! Hooray , no more black hair for me :)
Okay i'ma have my long long bath naozxcxz ^^
Bye readers ! <3

I miss my long hair ):

My hair is officially dyed black already ): Ha, it's okay . Be a neat student for a moment :)
Anyway , Happy 14th Birthday to Sixian yeah (: You're one year older ^^ But i older then you ><"
Yesterday went celebrate Sixian B'day tgt along with Szeyuen, Sinnee & Qianning .
Had alot of fun there ! Cut cake , play flour etc . Lol .
Most importanly is the B'day girl happy (: Must always carry a smile okays !
Wellz , my blog is beginning to rot soon ! Seem so boring right ? I've no choice :/
Great, family is being a bitch at me past few days & it's effing irritaing -'- Guess i should zip up ~
Ohya , now then i realise Singapore is just a tiny dot .__. Is so small y'knw ! Damn.
Everywhere we go, connections here and there, we actually knew each other ! Hellz ~
Okay , time for randomly photos .

Before ending this post , have something delicated to Wong Sinnee {: Haha i kept my promise !

So ya , don't think too much about it already . You have your family , friends & etc you can turn to . We are all always be there for you ! Must stay happy & live life thrilled with laughters kay ! I enjoy your crazyness, smiles & jokes ! What matters most , is to remind yourself to takecare of yourself well ! Your loved one surrounding you, will be sad if you're sick or something yup . This is what friends for when they are in need :) Must treasure those who are precious to you ! And not forgetting , we all love you too ^^ Haha I'm so random, So Yay Sinnee love ya ! ♥

I'ma having a sudden headache ): Killingz me nao .
Bye Readers !

I can't seem to find an inspiration for my tattoo, perhaps my name will do the trick ?
But i don't like my name at all ): I'd got no nickname too . Aww . * Brain-storming *
Anyway readers, i apologise for not posting alrights, hope you guys don't mind !! {:
It has been a chaotic week for me, but my everyday life's is always like this ..
Sigh , i wish someone could brighten up my life ! ):
Wellz , yesterday's shopping was not okay (N) Shall resume some other day .

I feel like i've changed . I don't know who am i already . I'm losing myself .. I feel nonsensical sometimes & my mood would go up and down like nobody's business . I can't turn back to the past me when i was thrilled with laughters . I cannot be happy anymore .. All i want is a happy & peaceful life , but you change it to miserable & scary . What have i done ? I'm always the one pledging clemency from you in a pathetic state of mine . Sick & tired of everything .. i don't wish to keep on crying . But how i wish i could turn back ..

Upload photos next time :D
Bai lovelies !

My face look so old but with redbrowish hair <3

Happy Chinese New Year & Valentine's Day ♥

14 Febuary 2010 Sunday
Cab to Grandmother's house around 11am :/ So freaking early .
Rot there till alot relatives came . Collect red packets ! (Y) Ate Steamboat .
Criss Angel ( Cousin ) showed me his extraordinary Magic tricks .
I can guarantee you , it will blow your mind off ! 100% cool . Took a vdeo & it's known as 'The 5 Prediction'
Gamble with Family , Late night Drinking & L4D2 (: Slept around 6am .
Secretlove, where are you ? ): Happy valentine's ..

15 Febuary 2010 Monday
Woke up 11 am -.-" Exhausted ttm . Prepared & Off to Uncle's car :D
Ride to many places today , Jurong > Hougang > Bishan > Tampines > Bedok .
Told Uncle that i'm gonna ride bike next time . He support me ! :D
Reach home 7pm . Prepared & Mrt to Bugis . Waited 1 hour + for Jane :/ Hah nevermind .
Was very piss off with some China Women -'- #@^&#*@!
Jane arrived & Minghui came shortly later :) Actually wanted to watch movie @ Iluma but all late night ><
Went to catch soft toys ^^ Me got elmo only ! Couldn't get the PinkPanther due to Money !
Must thanks that kind guy for treating us credits <: Cab back Bedok .
Slack at Mac , ate , Minghui go off , Jane's friend Bobby came . Homed @ 12am +
Drinking again .

My money is not enough ): But i'm gonna save up for my cravings to be fulfilled !
These few days of hols isn't fun at all ! No alcohol , only beers ! Sad .
I'ma go think of what tattoo i'ma gonna get soon (L) .
Ciaoz bitches ! <:

This week sucks ): Alot bad things happen ... Gonna update about past few days ;

10 Feb Wednesday 2010
School > Home > BedokInter > BugisJunc > BugisStrt > iluma > Kfc > Bedok .
Out with Jane & Szeyuen . Bought my CNY clothes . Quite satisfied ? But not enough :x
Homed around 11pm . Something really bad happened . Wanted to run away ... Didn't ,
Did not sleep the entire night till morning ..
Bruises , bites , cries , hurts everywhere . Sighs ..

11 Feb Thursday 2010
Accidentally fall asleep @ 6am . Woke up 7am . Slowly prepared ..though i know i'll be late ,
My phone was confiscated last night , could not recall anybody number except someone's ,
Rang up just to get few people number .. text Minpei using Pearlyn's phone . Thanks
Could not talk properly .. just keeping quiet to myself ..
Visit Brother today , sorry i've wasted your 20 min lecturing me ..
I'm just a useless uncouth girl ..
Cutted my hair .. too many reasons behind it , Fcuk it .

12 Feb Friday 2010
School > Ana's House > TPS > JennyDeli > Blk 66 > Homed .
Told MrLim about Brother . Not much of teachers seen . Ate at JennyDeli , so crowded !
Slack with friends . Learned how to play guitar :) Still need lots of coaching .

Oh wellz, like i've mention, i cut my hair from long~short .
I look like some retarded mofo out in the streets . Sobbbbbbs ):
Don't dare to take self-photos already ): Hais .
Gonna upload alot of photos ya . So please enjoy !

Upload the rest of photo in the next post okay (:
Bye Readers .

That night , staring at the sky from the window , spending few hours thinking , i've come to a decision . You can't dissuade me anymore . You fright the hell out of me , what more do you want ? I still fucking spare a thought for you ! Oh god , why am i born with such a soft heart ? You're nothing but a beast in my eyes already . Instead of giving me a goodlife , you want my life to be miserable . Are you nuts or what ? I scream because you were transforming ! NOT MY FATHER ANYMORE . Still want to call woodbridge , send me inside . Go on , dial the number ! I'm sorry Brother , your lecturing might not work on me already . Tired of seeing both of your faces , totally spoils my mood . Why must i live my days being so stressed ? Crying all day long does not help anything too ! Someone just kill me pleasezxc . Sighh ):

March & June Holidays faster come ! I'm waiting ! :)

I'm confused, mixed feelings, showing attitude. Sorry but i can't control.
Mood just went up & down , low & high today. Quick summarise;
School > Home > CP > Bedok > Home.
Technical System went wrong & let us wait 1 hour plus _ | _ .
I don't know what's wrong with me but i know i should just STFU. I hate myself. FML.
Bugis tomorrow !
Bye .

What's the problem with you? Won't your mouth get tired of nagging all day long from North to South? It fucking piss me off with your bloody kuku face ! So, you're blaming your fate that you had this daughter&son. Useless only right? Do nothing but troubles. Then i also can say, i blame my destiny to met sucha MOTHER like you ? Fair & Square what? Shit you seriously, I tried so hard to be good daughter already. All my hard efforts goes down to drain. What for i put so much pressure into me. You don't notice it too. Always like this ...

Monday Blues :/
Schooling today, bored ttm ! >: Sleep during Chinese, English & Science ~
After school, buy snacks eat then SY house, prepared then foot to Bedok Inter.
Collect my new specs ><" Retarded ! Then go search for clothes . Not much to see .
Bugis on Wednesday :)
Homed @ 4.45pm , bathe and off to tuition.
Skipping ICT & maths remedial tomorrow, Yayyyyyyyyy . got reason kay :P
Baiii Bitchesxc ! <: Post soon again .

Ate CanadianPizzas last night, couldn't finish it >: Drank beer awhile & drop dead @ 4~5am.
Woke up 1pm, use laptop, change bedsheet ^^ Dad called ask to join him for movies.
Prepared , bus to TM , take my ticket from counter .
The movie i watched was : 14 Blades Rating: 5/5. It's fantastic (Y)
Especially for those who like fighting :) Ikan Panggang for Dinner . Yums !
Bought studs & homed at 8pm.

CNY is coming. Still haven't buy my clothes. Shopping spree anyone ? (:
Hope to receive more money this year. I wanna INK ! :D
Aww there's school tmrw. Bai bitches ! <:

9 TEENS / 2N2

Bak from camp ya ^^ Today woke up afternoon , whole body aching & eye fucking pain !
Went BedokInter make my specs as mine lost during camp *sobs* Buy things too.
Shall elaborate about my camp :) Photo spam later !

3 Febuary 2010
Meet SY & Jane at 506 to school. Had Science CT & Maths test . School dismiss , reported to hall for camp briefing. Bag/body check for everyone. Mine was like less then 1 second :P Took bus to LabarorPark. Our faciliators are Anne & Shaowei(Subway). Nice meeting them :D Proceeded to our rooms. Did some theory, had dinner & supper ! Many briefings too. Bathe with the Girls :x Lights off around 11pm, on radio, look for Mdm Ng for buns to eat :x Slept around 3~4am.

4 Febuary 2010
Woke up 5 or 6am. Like so early sia :x Prepared stuffs as there's treking. Travelled alot places from ; Campsite > KentRidgePark > HarPawVilla > Bukit Chandu > HortPark > Andersonwave. It's tiring but fun yo ! RotiPrata for Lunch. Walk back to Campsite while chitchat with Anne :) We were the first to arrive at 4.15pm. Pro much? Cooked our own dinner with 9Teens. Sedap Oiiiiiiiii (Y) At night, cried terribly due to over-thinking, luckily Sixian accompany me. Lights off at 12am.
Went to find food again :x Talk to some facils while eating . Slept around 2 ~ 3am.

5 Febuary 2010
Breakfast was delicious :) Headed to SHINES outdoor for our high elements. Done alot of station that needed each other helps. Fun ttm <: Lunch was okok. Aftermath, some people tried out this obstacle which is hard. But they push their way through (: Happy for them. Next obstacle was Me & Pearlyn , it was damn tiring honestly ! Need alot of strength. I was afraid Pearlyn might fall :x Luckily we survived . LOL. Return back to camp, stay at canteen till dinner time . 9Teens won the 'Most Delicious Soup' award {: Lastly took some photos & class photo before we board to bus back to school ! :D
Slack at 109 with Szeyuen & Haikal till 10.15plus , haikal went home. Went to 503 talktalk with SY .
Homed @ 11.30pm.

Not much of my face inside :/ haha . Upload more next time ya :)
Goodbye folks !

Yoz ! :D School today damn packed ! Slept during chinese again :/
After recess was DNT, i keep falling asleep y'know ! But was asked to wake up.
Gotten detention for not doing work . kk nevermind ^^
But suddenly got this crazy teacher ask us to report Mr sari for late-coming detention .
I & SY was like HUH ? we where got late. Actually for those 4-5 times late de . ZZZ
Skip maths due to detention , nevermind , rot at MRR till 1.50pm.
ICT > Maths Remedial > Mr Hafiedz Detention .
Bus with Sixian.
Dinnered @ block 29 kopitiam with parents O.O shocking much?

Hoho, tomorrow's camp. 2 nights only leh ! Sian . But nvm, hope it's fun (:
Text me or call me yuppppzxc . 96970291 !
Friday night then camp's over . Maybe going celebrate minpei's b'day .
So stay tune for next post :D
Baiiiiiizxcxz ♥

Slept around 3 am last night ? Or should i say didn't slept at all ? Doing my Compo.
Wanted to cook noodles to eat but i was so lazy & exhausted too ):
Woke up feeling lethargic, like some dead zombie, prepared went 109 mama meet SY.
School as usual . Had a short maths test . Sleep during English awhile .
During Science, ate Chocolate that occupied me but still went back to sleep <:
Time files & it was time for dismissal . Backgate meet Sinnee they all. Slowly all disperse.
Slack with Sixian at Mac awhile. Told her things that i almost cried :X
Came to my house, play l4d2, webcam with her friend. 5.15pm went out . Off to tuition :D
Homed around 7.45pm.

Lastly, before ending this post,

HAPPY SWEET 16TH BIRTHDAY HO MINPEI ♥
Yay i'm so good \m/
Baiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiizxcxvcxvvx .

30 Saturday 2010
Finally cleared my wardrobe! Spring clean the whole house. Found some $$$ :x
L4D2 while munching snacks. Ho-ho. Aftermath, On music , and went dancing !
Didn't know that my dad actually knew tecktonik . Like so-so uh . HAHA .
Wento find Dad @ TM around 7pm. Suppose to catch a movie but no age for me -'-
So eat at Foodcourt. And shoppppp. I want the Adidas Watch ):
Homed around 10pm.
Late night drinking (Y) Slept around 4~5am .

31 Saturday 2010
Mum's irritating piercing voice woke me up. It's like only 11am ? -.-"
I was so-so tired till i drop down the bed. Nevermind, woke up, straight lay my fingers on laptop :B
Daily routine then wento play L4D2 , and yes i become pro already :)
Chilli Crab for dinner ! :D Yummys .

Did not go out this weekend . Goodgirl much ?
Still have English Compo to do . Confirm alot emotional stuffs inside :/
School days are resuming tomorrow ! But wed onwards might be fun (Y)
Bye Readers <3 !

Went to school abit early today <: Badminton during P.E lesson
Didn't played so Mdm Ng came & chit-chat with me (: Laughdieme . Jokers !
Slept during Science :/ , Disiao Mr Yap during English ! Bad hair day dude \m/
Assembly , had briefing for camp . Yay but 2 nights only -.-"
School dismiss ! Something happened . Tsk , sec 1 only sia , step lian .
Very funny uh they all . Watch your back girls ^^
Wento Sinnee house slack awhile till 3 going 4 . Homed aftermath -.-"
Took a nap as i was really tired :o Bedok inter to buy stuffs , saw Helmie .
Baiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii .

[edit - 11.15pm]
Just came back from 7-11 buy food for myself ^^
Meet the YanZhi awhile . Laughtoutloud la he . ZzZ . Anyway Thanks :)
I think i'm gonna go 7-11 again later because i like it . Weird huh ?
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School today is acceptable , not as sleepy like ystd <: Ate during recess. FULL.
Accidentally slept during Maths :c Dismissed school, wento SY's house.
My camera album kena spammed liao :/
Then homed around 4.30pm as there's guest in my house . " MY BROTHER " -.-"
It was my bro's friend . Haha crap alot uh ! Still ask me call him Korkor . Ya wait long .
They very boliao sia . Tsk . I should visit my bro today !
Because my memory good , unlike someone's . HAHA STM .
Used comp till naozxc :)
Byebyeeeeeeee .

I miss my long fringe & awesome hair colour ): Maybe the old me too ..

Yoyo :D Morning meet SY at 506 as usual , almost late but never :) Sorry for the attitude ya.
Mother Tongue Common Test today, going to fail damn badly. Hah.
Stomach hurts ! Sleep for 4 periods straight i think. Body feels weak.
After recess, paid attention during Maths :) CMT > Walk out to gate w MdmZuibaidah :)
Took a cabb to ChangiPrison w Mummy.
Many nonsense spout out from my mouth :x My bro is forever a joker yeah.
Bus 2 & Homed.
Currently chatting with Minpei (: Planning alot of things together . Yay ! (Y)
Goodbye Readers ♥

Hola (: , Morning meet SY at 506 , reached backgate then decided to U-turn .
Reach main gate just in time (?) But in the end , late -.-" Shermaine & Sixian also.
Waited very long. Finally our turn then suddenly Mr Teo came. Suay ttm ~
Had to write 250 words of essay . Spend few hours in canteen doing it .
After recess was DNT , sleep the whole 3 periods ^0^
But Maths lesson , i damn focus in class kay . ICT after school do MediaStage (Y)
Bedok Inter > 501> Homed @ 6pm.
Tomorrow going to visiting (: You've white hairs ! Laugh.
Adióssss update tmrwwww .